assisted suicide

She asked:

how would you describe yourself?

I glanced aside

saw no one

***

As long as you don't slide off either end

It doesn't matter which one is real

Of course it's happening inside your head Harry

But why should that mean it's not real?

She sat me down and calmly explained 

that I in fact did not have a psychosis

***  

Dying is a step away

one step onto the tracks

one step off a building

one step off a cliff

one step away from you

***

Sometimes

actually

most times

I have been in this mind I 

wished I were not 

was not

am not

Then your face

appears or I 

create it

re-

create you

in my mind and then

wish to stay

***

One day

I glanced aside

saw no one